Ha Ha! I've Been Rasha'd!

I didn't really know what I was getting myself into when I joined my friend in an online Rasha session last week for the first time ever, however I'm starting to get the feeling that a lot of positive shifts are taking place. At first I experienced horrible anxiety, depression and suicidal thoughts... But none of that concerned me... Been there, done that a thousand times! I am no newbie to mood disorder. I just sleep through it as much as I can and try something different... like fasting! I haven't eaten too much in the past week. I am very hungry actually! But I am feeling better! Especially since purchasing a supplement called L-Tyrosine, which I had regrettably ran out of.

What made matters worse is that I ran out of money last week and had to ask a close relative for extra money, as he already provides me with a significant amount of money monthly to help me out. Well, it's significant to him. In LA, the amount may not seem so significant, although I am quite grateful for it. But my close relative was concerned, as I was actually having a panic attack while talking to him on the phone. You see at first it was a text message asking for $60 or so which he kindly agreed to with no questions asked. But when I called him up crying a few minutes later because the $100 he had just sent me with chase quick pay was swallowed up by a random bill that I forgot was on autopay, that's when the energy seemed to escalate. My relative sent me another $100...and then, I suppose, out of deep concern sent me another $300... I called back to thank him and he sounded annoyed to hear from me again...which made me feel worse about taking the money. But the worst thing of all is that days later...all the money was basically gone!

No, maybe that's not the worst thing of all! The worst thing may have been the long voicemail I received from this close relative telling me that he was looking for places for me to live in New York and found many wonderful condos that he would delightfully pay for if I left my best guy friend of over 20 years and his daughter (who I consider to be my daughter as well.) And by the way, if I did decide to leave them, they would be homeless in LA and I would be alone and depressed in New York knowing I did something terribly disloyal and incorrect. I wanted to ask this relative, if I found a beautiful place for you in another city and I could pay for it, would you leave your beloved wife to live there? But I kept my mouth shut understanding that this relative is loaded up on a bunch of pharmaceuticals and quite possibly not thinking clearly. In fact, he just purchased a $2000 plus Disney trip for me and my step daughter for her birthday. So were supposed to go to Disney together and then I move out and leave her so I can live in another city by myself? Doesn't add up.

After I told my close friend about the conversation that transpired with my relative, he told me that he's looking for a new place for him and his daughter... but not me! Then the next day he took it back and said he was looking for all of us... But hearing that didn't make me feel too good. In fact, it made me feel awful and I got to thinking that it was time for me to try to find some new friends....and/or lovers. The universe told me that night to go to the Rosicrucian Lodge where I would meet like-minded kindred souls. The idea resonated with me and so I agreed that I should do so that coming Sunday...

Then a most wonderful thing occurred.... On Saturday the 17th, (my lucky number by the way) I had an incredible meditation before going to bed and dreamt some very inspiring dreams... and by Sunday I knew that I was supposed to go meet my fellow Brother and Sister Rosicrucians at the Lodge/ Temple in my area... It was not an easy feat I might add. Leaving the apartment early on a weekend is very difficult for me. But I felt that it was imperative for me to go and catch some new energy. So I ran out of the apartment without eating anything. I was fasting. Which I now realize was not quite a good idea.

The energy at the Lodge was so immense that I could barely think straight. Having some food in my stomach would've helped. The people were so kind and welcoming! But I was light headed and overwhelmed! I knew I was supposed to be there though! And although I was late for the discussion... I was right on time! The universe let me know. I decided to purchase Rosicrucian Incense from the gift shop. It cost me $17. I was left with $117 in that one bank account and $17 in my other bank account. That's a lot of 17's following Saturday the 17th! I knew I was home!

After going to the Lodge on Sunday I felt that my energy had shifted even more... Rasha plus Rosicrucianism equals the next level! I didn't need a nap on Monday...My energy was so high. I decided to walk on a treadmill for 20 minutes instead. I was also able to give more attention to my step daughter. She was quite grateful. On Tuesday I woke up at 4:40am and couldn't get back to sleep. That morning I tried my Rosicrucian Incense while meditating for the first time and then went for a walk. Energy levels still high. My close friend/ roommate was unexpectedly extra loving towards me that day. Maybe he realized I was searching for new friends (or lovers) at the Lodge and he needed to step his game up. Whatever it was... whatever it is... things are changing for the better... ever since I got Rasha'd! Wow! Rasha plus Rosicrucianism equals life-changing next level Sh*z! I'm looking forward to witnessing the magic that continues to unfold...

Jennie H is a Reiki Master Energy Healer, Co-Founder of Self Saviorz Society California Non-Profit 501(c)(3), Poet, Author and Entertainer with goals to help raise the vibration and consciousness of humanity!